Maybe we were lost, but all that matters now is that we’re falling into the center of the ocean and when we touch the surface we’ll make the water splash and touch the sky. But, perhaps you’re too caught up in your tiny meta-narrative to see the big picture.
So, take a moment. Take a deep breath. Step away from the world and into God’s arms. Take as long as you need. You may need awhile. Don’t be afraid to question. Feel free to hold your breath. But… don’t forget to let it all out. When you are ready, open your eyes. Be alive. Let the trees start swaying high, and with your sun-kissed shell, lean forward and freely fall to begin to understand how the Spirit is capable of changing you from the inside out if you were to merely let go.
Hi. It’s me again. Here’s an update.
I don’t understand what God is doing exactly, but I am pretty sure He’s up to a lot of good in my life. I’m being faced with a number of very different things this quarter that scare the hell out of me, but in my fear I am noticing my need for God, which is quite a romantic happening. I feel like the only thing keeping me sane is band practice on Friday nights. Frankly, I could care less about my classes this quarter. I’ve got so many other things on my mind that the academic portion of school is really in the background. Everything else has been moved to the forefront like the bible, the band, and the sun. It’s kind of silly, but I suppose it’s always been this way. I’ve never been one to fully invest in school. There are usually a couple of classes I find really fascinating, but for the most part I become quickly bored and think to myself that I could probably learn just as much on my own.
God has blessed me so much in the past couple of months. You would laugh. It’s really quite ridiculous. It’s humbling though because I know it’s not from me. I clearly see God at work, and I’ve been yearning for that sense for a long time now. I don’t know how this school year will finish off, but I’m going to try really hard to make it end triumphantly to give God back just a fraction of what He gave me.